Shell.

It’s funny, really, how in the end, I realize that I’m a very apathetic person. Either that, or I really do have my own world. Yeah, I might be part autistic. I’ve been trying to give a damn and somehow, the message never gets across. Like I’m screaming my lungs out in an extremely isolated place or something. It’s like being an oasis in the middle of the desert, only that no one ever sees the oasis. And since no one ever listens to what I have to say, I’ve learned to shut myself inside a shell and talk to myself instead.

Then people have been prodding me to come out of my shell. But I don’t listen. They didn’t listen when I still cared. Now, I don’t care.

Because being inside the shell feels so much better.

Of titanium bits, and other stuff.

Ever since I got my braces last Saturday, I’ve been on a hunger strike of sorts. It’s not really a hunger strike if you think about it — it was involuntary — but I’ve been starving. Yes, starving.

It doesn’t help that my siblings have been eating food that I desperately want to eat lately, and all I can manage is a cup of Lucky Me Instant Noodles. Not exactly appetizing, compared to what they’re eating. So now I end up enviously watching them eat the food that was really meant for me — and they’re rubbing it in.

And then there’s the pain part. It doesn’t hurt as much as it did last Saturday night but it’s not exactly comfortable either. I’ve discovered that pain is a psychological thing — when my braces were killing me last Saturday (causing me to wake up in the middle of the night), I kept on telling myself that, hey, it’s not painful. It actually worked — the pain just went away. Amazing, I tell you.

Unfortunately, I can’t say the same thing while eating. Even if I try to not think of the pain, it’s still there. Heh. I guess it isn’t purely a mind-over-matter thing. X_x

Proof? I’m still hungry.

And did I mention that I’m having a hard time speaking properly? Yeah, I am — my family tends to mishear what I’m saying nowadays. Now I sound like I have a lisp or something — can’t even pronounce my S’s right anymore. Annoying, I tell you — annoying and daunting.

But what can I say? It’s something that I have to live with.

flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup.

Okay. So I watched Across The Universe yesterday. And, man, it was awesome. No, seriously. The visual effects, the acting, the songs (and especially the songs!) — oh, man. It was good. The backdrops were awesome too.

And Jude’s British accent had me. HAHAHA.

I hated Prudence, though. No, not the actress. Just the character. Hahaha.

About the songs — they have oh-so LSS-able songs. In fact, they’re stuck in my head now. Like, Revolution, for instance.

And the funeral scenes made me sad, especially that of Jojo’s brother. 😦 The gospel rendition of Let It Be helped with that scene.

Basta. It’s a masterpiece. I suggest you watch it.

And we’ll sing along to “With A Little Help from My Friends” when you’ve done so. 😀

Metal?

I am so not looking forward to Tuesday.

Grr. Wish me luck, if one does need luck for it.

After all, it’s braces we’re talking about.

Oh, and Happy Mother’s Day to all moms out there. 😀

(I’m not malambing, so pardon me.)

Satisfied.

I’m pleased that I actually reached 20 laps today, considering I spent less time in the pool.

And not only did I reach 20, I did an extra lap for fun. Woo. So that makes a total of 1.05 KM for today, and 1.85 KM total this week. Woo.

Target for tomorrow: 1 KM again, but this time, try to swim 100 meters continuously (at least once). I’ve been taking short breaks between laps, you see.

Crap. I’m taking it a bit too seriously. XD