It’s funny, really, how in the end, I realize that I’m a very apathetic person. Either that, or I really do have my own world. Yeah, I might be part autistic. I’ve been trying to give a damn and somehow, the message never gets across. Like I’m screaming my lungs out in an extremely isolated place or something. It’s like being an oasis in the middle of the desert, only that no one ever sees the oasis. And since no one ever listens to what I have to say, I’ve learned to shut myself inside a shell and talk to myself instead.

Then people have been prodding me to come out of my shell. But I don’t listen. They didn’t listen when I still cared. Now, I don’t care.

Because being inside the shell feels so much better.

Ever since I got my braces last Saturday, I’ve been on a hunger strike of sorts. It’s not really a hunger strike if you think about it — it was involuntary — but I’ve been starving. Yes, starving.

It doesn’t help that my siblings have been eating food that I desperately want to eat lately, and all I can manage is a cup of Lucky Me Instant Noodles. Not exactly appetizing, compared to what they’re eating. So now I end up enviously watching them eat the food that was really meant for me — and they’re rubbing it in.

And then there’s the pain part. It doesn’t hurt as much as it did last Saturday night but it’s not exactly comfortable either. I’ve discovered that pain is a psychological thing — when my braces were killing me last Saturday (causing me to wake up in the middle of the night), I kept on telling myself that, hey, it’s not painful. It actually worked — the pain just went away. Amazing, I tell you.

Unfortunately, I can’t say the same thing while eating. Even if I try to not think of the pain, it’s still there. Heh. I guess it isn’t purely a mind-over-matter thing. X_x

Proof? I’m still hungry.

And did I mention that I’m having a hard time speaking properly? Yeah, I am — my family tends to mishear what I’m saying nowadays. Now I sound like I have a lisp or something — can’t even pronounce my S’s right anymore. Annoying, I tell you — annoying and daunting.

But what can I say? It’s something that I have to live with.

Okay. So I watched Across The Universe yesterday. And, man, it was awesome. No, seriously. The visual effects, the acting, the songs (and especially the songs!) — oh, man. It was good. The backdrops were awesome too.

And Jude’s British accent had me. HAHAHA.

I hated Prudence, though. No, not the actress. Just the character. Hahaha.

About the songs — they have oh-so LSS-able songs. In fact, they’re stuck in my head now. Like, Revolution, for instance.

And the funeral scenes made me sad, especially that of Jojo’s brother. The gospel rendition of Let It Be helped with that scene.

Basta. It’s a masterpiece. I suggest you watch it.

And we’ll sing along to “With A Little Help from My Friends” when you’ve done so.

I am so not looking forward to Tuesday.

Grr. Wish me luck, if one does need luck for it.

After all, it’s braces we’re talking about.

Oh, and Happy Mother’s Day to all moms out there.

(I’m not malambing, so pardon me.)

I’m pleased that I actually reached 20 laps today, considering I spent less time in the pool.

And not only did I reach 20, I did an extra lap for fun. Woo. So that makes a total of 1.05 KM for today, and 1.85 KM total this week. Woo.

Target for tomorrow: 1 KM again, but this time, try to swim 100 meters continuously (at least once). I’ve been taking short breaks between laps, you see.

Crap. I’m taking it a bit too seriously. XD

Thank God for swimming.

You see, I’ve been really, really bored at home, and inactive too. So yeah, I decided to tag along with my brothers’ swimming lessons — I’m allowed to use the pool even without the lessons, anyway.

As expected, I did laps. 50 meters/lap. Woo.

But I never thought that doing laps for almost three hours could be THAT tiring. But still, I think it’s worth it. After all, I can’t be a pig the entire summer — I need some physical activity!

I think I swam a total of 800 meters (16 laps) today. Haha. (Yes, I took breaks — so don’t say that I’m extremely slow XD) I dunno — I didn’t keep track, you see. Oh, well. Target for tomorrow is at least 900 meters (18 laps) but if I can go 1K, then I will. Yes, I’m ambitious. So sue me. XD

I plan to increase the distance by 100 meters a day, until Friday, then keep it at 1K for next week. If, by Wednesday, I find that 1K isn’t as tiring as I think it is, then I’ll add 100 meters. Haha.

Oh, well. A challenge? Yeah.

I’m up for it.

You know how some songs are just so freaking appropriate? Well, this latest encounter isn’t only that — it’s actually retelling some parts of my life. Dammit.

Just listen. (Thank you, Sir Martin.)

Wala lang. After writing that rant over at LJ, boom. Someone up there must be listening.

It’s a miracle I’m not unproductive today. Yay. Go me. Thank you, Photoshop! Thank you, Google! Thank you, Safari (because my Firefox is currently out of whack X_x). (Hooray for capitalism XD)

And thank you, Aveline.

OH CRAP. WORD COUNT HERE IN WP IS ALIVE AGAIN. Yay.

Hmm…

And, I’m done with @DEEP. Go me. Lols.

Okay, so I’ve been thinking about going to HKU for univ because, you know, college isn’t too far away (oh man. Juniors na tayo sa June… noes!). Since it’s never too early to think about which course to take, I decided to check out their website.

It results in utter frustration, my friend.

Read their requirements for undergrads from the Philippines:

The Philippines

1. A bachelor’s degree from a recognised university in the Philippines; and
2. Fulfilment of the English language requirement by obtaining one of the following:
1. A score of 550 or better in the paper-based TOEFL (213 for computer-based, 80 for            internet-based); or
2. A minimum overall band of 7 in IELTS; or
3. A combined score of not less than 1100 in old SAT I plus at least 550 in SAT II English Writing or a total score of not less than 1650 in new SAT I with a sub-score on essay of not less than 8.

– http://www.hku.hk/admission/nonjupas-uer.htm#philippines

See? I mean, just to get a bachelor’s degree from HKU, I’ll have to get a degree from here? WTF, right? Dream school ko pa naman yun… kasi three years lang ang courses, plus the subjects seem very interesting.

Which makes me think that our educational system isn’t at par with international standards.

It’s so frustrating, really.

*sobs*

Had a little bit of nostalgia-tripping today, literally.

It all started when we went to our cousins’ house to drop off something. While Mom was there, Dad, my bro, and I drove around to look for a photocopier. Guess what?

We saw our old house.

Now, that may not seem much to you, but to me, it does. After all, it’s where I spent the first five years of my life. I can still remember quite vividly those days when I’d actually play with neighbors, some of them my cousins (since I don’t get to do that where I live now).

I still remember the time when I tried on my cousin Mike’s bike, only to fall off (I wasn’t used to biking downhill) and get my knee scraped badly. (This I remembered while walking to their house from our car.)

I still remember their old house just a block away, where I used to spend a lot of my time playing and experimenting with the harmonica. It’s still there — the house, I mean.

I can still recall the day when I didn’t want to go home after having so much fun playing with my cousins over at their place. In fact, I think I only agreed to go home when it was getting really late, and if I wore my PJs (laugh all you want here, I was a weird kid).

I remember when Ate PC and I used to be busmates. Hell, the reason why I wanted to go to Miriam was because she studied there. It was my first foray into a so-called “big school”, and of course, I wanted someone familiar around.

I remember, when I was nine, we were supposed to go malling with our other cousins (Lloyd and Romlynn). What happened, though, was we got stuck in their house, and we ended up playing Tekken 3 all day. That was my first videogame ever, I believe.

Dammit. Remembering all those things makes me want to be a child again.

…I’ll go and hunt for baby pics now.