So, yeah, I was browsing through my first WordPress blog a few minutes ago, and I read this entry of mine I wrote back in first year.
Love, oh, love. It’s such a
poisonousbeautiful four letter word, a word that can turn an entire world upside down. It can create bridges connecting two people and once this bridge is created, it’s such an engineering marvel.
And yet love can be a sword. It can hurt you and you’ll end up writhing in pain. Like I said in my previous post about love, it is bittersweet. There are moments of happiness and there are moments of sorrow, of agony.
But then you’ll still go for it, because you know love isn’t worthless. It’s priceless. It can never go to waste for even though the person you love so much doesn’t reciprocate that love back to you, he/she still knows that someone out there cares for him/her. That’s what counts, really, although it hurts when that love isn’t returned to you.
If that happens to you, don’t give up. Wait, be patient, persevere. Although it may not be a happy ending for you, at least you know that you did your best. You tried.
There’s something about the pain caused by loving someone that makes you come back for more of it. I don’t know exactly what but it is true. Maybe it’s because you’re sacrificing your happiness just so that another person can be happy. Maybe it’s because you’re getting out of your comfort zone just because you want that person to be comfortable. It’s all about giving.
I know I sound philosophical here, but, think about it.
God. Was I that cheesy and disillusioned back then? Well, admittedly, I still see my world in rose-tinted shades, but not as much as before. Besides, I still quite agree with what I wrote — except that it actually makes me cringe now.
Funny, I’m posting this a few days from Valentines. Really.
And you know what? I don’t give much of a damn anymore.
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Listening to: Eric Clapton – Change the World
